Get out of my way circumstances. You are attempting to block my view of my Savior. Umm, not something I'm willing to let happen. Sure, you might get away with it for a while, but I refuse to live with blocked vision.
How many times do I utter the words, "Ugh, I just don't know what to do!" Usually while I'm either running my fingers through my hair, crying my eyeballs out, pacing the floor or all three. Has it ever occurred to you that we--me and you--make living this life too difficult?
Have you ever found yourself wishing someone would just sweep in and take up the fight for you? How about take up the fight and let you rest, fill you with peace, heal you, and love you while they fight for you? Have you ever felt overwhelmed and wondered how much longer you can keep it all up? I have. For a very simple example (Even though it sure didn't feel simple at the time!!), I remember when all of my three girls were small and I was dropping them off at daycare before going to work when I ran into my brother. He was bringing his children to the same daycare. He walked over to one of my little ones and picked her up which gave him a good view of a few fingernails that needed a little trimming. Okay, maybe they needed a little more than trimming, maybe they needed cutting, like last month. Now, as I'm sure you can relate, I was juggling three balls at one time and if I even thought about resting, one of the balls threatened to fall in the floor and then everything would come crashing down. I was, like many of you, a wife and mother & I worked full time. In my juggling act, I was just releasing one ball milli-seconds before I had to catch the next. The picture I am trying to draw is--soon and very soon it was all going to crash down around me. I was overwhelmed.
So, my brother has my little girl and he (not meaning any harm) says, "Does your uncle need to cut your fingernails for your mama so you won't scratch anybody?" Yep, that was the straw. Without intending to hurt me, he had called me out and drawn attention to something I was failing to do in front of all the super-mama's & daddy's, all the employees of the day care & (the very worst critic of all) me! What he might as well have said was, "Oh my goodness! Look at these horrible fingernails! Your mama needs to get with it. Can't she do anything right? Have your nails ever been cut?! Bless your little, neglected heart. I'm a perfect daddy and I am the best fingernail cutter, ever. I'll take care of you sweet baby, since your mama obviously can't."
Yes, I know. Drastic exaggeration. But that's what my heart did to me that day. I was so tired. Today I don't deal with cutting fingernails anymore but I still have "stuff". There are always going to be things in our lives. Sometimes they are little things, like fingernails. Other times, they are things that sneak up behind us and obliterate us like a bomb, drastically altering life as we know it. Without fail, we struggle to get our footing. We trip over hurt and confusion. We stumble over worry and fear. We hold on desperately to control and pride. We look for possible solutions here and there. We may even stop and try to re-focus but circumstances fill our eyes and feelings scream in our ears.
Maybe you say, don't my feelings matter? They are real! And what about those circumstances, they are pretty stinkin' real too! Yes, you are right. Your circumstances are real and your feelings ABSOLUTELY matter. Not just to me, but even more importantly, to your Savior. It would be really easy to think Here she is talking about stupid fingernails but my circumstances make fingernails look like a play-doh. I know right where your coming from. You've got one of those "bomb-type" of situations and your desperate. Good news: the same truths apply to both big and small circumstances. As long as you are focusing on them, you can't see Jesus. Peter walked on water toward Jesus, until he looked at the wind & waves. (Matt 14:28-31) You might have one heck of a battle in front of you. You may even be sitting right smack-dab in the center of one right now. You may be at a crossroads with the direction of your life. You might have some things that seem to have no solution. You know what? That isn't your fight. It isn't your fight! For we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. (2 Chron 20:12) So, is that it, do you just face eminent defeat? Oh but no! Because scripture goes on to say, We do not know what to do, BUT our eyes are upon You! Verse 15 of the same chapter says, This is what the Lord says to you: Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army (or your circumstances). For the battle is not yours, but God's. AMEN! (and thank goodness, right?!)
Are you tired? Are you overwhelmed? Are your circumstances hurting you? Are they clouding your outlook? God Almighty is the only answer. Exodus 14:14 says He will fight for YOU, sweet & dearly loved child, and you shall keep your peace. He is with us right now. He helps us. He fights for us. (2 Chron 32:8)
Let's not try to do this living thing on our own. Let's not try to make it so difficult. That's why we have a Savior! Let's take our eyes off the wind & waves and put them back on Him.
Dear Circumstances, move.
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